karla n me.

"I don't know what frightens me more, the power that crushes us, or our endless ability to endure it"
--Shantaram.
Reading Shantaram and regretting why I didn't read when I had it an year ago. Full of dialogues and superb quotes!! Am loving it.
Am off to Ajmer and Pushkar for a couple of days. I have been to these places last year as well. The visit marked the beginning of the trouble I am in for quite sometime. It took me out of the ignorance I was in and brought me into light.
Karla says "Truth is a bully that we all pretend to like" and the truth I came to know was actually a bully that I did pretend to like despite the fact that It made me sick and helpless. "Some of the worst wrongs, were caused by people who tried to change things" is pretty much true but in this case it did something very unusual. It made the situation better for a change.

Pushkar is one place I guess that will give me much needed peace of mind before I am in familiar and yet not so familiar place, the start of the next semester at IISER. A place where loyalties and commitments are deliquescent and volatile. I have been forced to live in the pretext of commitment and crushed in all possible ways. I hope wandering around in pushkar give me the strength to take revenge -- remain silent for 'Silence is the tortured mans revenge'.

Or maybe 'If fate doesn't make you laugh, you just don't get the joke' is true and I still haven't got the joke! May be I am not afraid of getting crushed by some power but of my 'near' - endless ability to endure it.